I think that sometime after reading one too many “and then I did this, and then I did this…” posts sometime in the spring I made a subconscious decision to move away from writing a running narrative on my life, and to move towards telling stories in bits and pieces. But after reading some very elegant re-caps and going through my posts from the past few months I was left with a question: have I really said much about what I’ve been doing this summer? About where I am, or who I am, or how I’m doing? And I don’t think I have! So I think that maybe an adjustment is in order.
At this moment in time I’m counting down the days to my honeymoon, that we’ll be taking over our one year wedding anniversary (September 27th!!). I’m looking at pictures of Disney Cruises and am day dreaming of getting a beach massage. I’m trying to be a cheerleader for Mister, who is going through a time of total upheaval at work. I’m trying to be understanding when we have fights because we’re tired, or he’s overwhelmed, that’s okay. I’m trying to understand that if a pot boils over and he gets mad when I would laugh, that’s also okay. We’re different. We deal differently.
I’m trying to be a better friend, sister, and daughter. I’m working on being in touch with my friends more and on being present in their lives. I’m trying to make sure we DO things together instead of just meet to talk- we need more memories, not more coffee. I’m trying to find a weekend where I can go ride horses with my Dad. He has four horses not a half hour away from where I live, and I haven’t been riding in three years, or maybe longer. I’m trying to pack in some time with my sister before she moves to South France for a semester! France! She’s such an adventurer and I’m so proud of her, I wish I had done those things! I’m trying to see my mom even though she’s withdrawing from our lives the more her boyfriend is in her life. I’m trying to figure out if there’s a place in my life for my step dad, now that he’s gone. I’m not sure there is, but I hope he’s still sober and I do love the version of him from 5 or 6 years ago, and miss him.
I’m trying to wait until Sunday to put on my new Minnesota Vikings jersey, I’m trying to put my head down and study, I’m trying to wait until I’ve finished studying to use all the new stamps I got at archivers!! I want to send cards to all my bloggy friends. I want to scrapbook the past 23 years of my life. I’m looking for a good day to go to my grandfather’s farm and pick highbush cranberry’s to make jelly, like my grandma did before she passed away. I want to make the chocolate cake she used to make and give it to my dad & aunt with a jar of jelly each, so they can step back into their childhoods for a moment.
I’m happy with my body even though I have been eating double devonshire cream on scones, making dough based everything, and defiantly not working out. I’m thrilled we don’t own a scale and think that the fact that I’m getting a little padding on my haunches is amusing. Isn’t that what fall is for? I’m happy that I don’t mind if I gain or lose 5 lbs, and that my marathon runner of a husband is amused that I’m not as slight as he is, as in spite of my efforts his metabolism is super human and mine is that of a mere mortal. I feel healthy, grounded and sexy these days, and am excited for all the fall suppers to come.
I’m loving Mister and am shellshocked by how our relationship has changed over the past year. We are so in love, it’s stupid. We’re all late night walks with the dogs, hot coffee, playing yahtzee, talking tech, listening to podcasts in the car, making new burger (and veggie burger!) combinations while we still can, and are perfecting our puppy cuddling technique. I’m amazed that we’re talking about when we would like to start a family (in a few years) and that talking about this stuff feels natural makes me want to cry I’m so happy. Referring to him as my husband doesn’t sound funny anymore, it sounds comforting.
I’m trying not to get caught up in the small stuff, I’m trying to will myself towards the positive, and I’m trying to decide if we need a car for me in the winter. And I’m going to try out having gel nails next week, just because a girly change for fall might be fun, for a while.
michelle woo
“We are so in love, it’s stupid.”
Most perfect line ever.
.-= michelle woo´s last blog ..Michelle, My Belle* =-.
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Miss Dallas
That was so beautiful Kyla! I’m so glad that you’re in a good place right now!
Also, our anniversary dates are only two days separated! Mine is on the 25th!
And I’m hoping you can send a little luck my way today in your spare time. I’ve got a mini-interview with a local publication today!
All the best, dear!
.-= Miss Dallas´s last blog ..Callanetics: Day 2 =-.
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Nora
You know, the more you write, the more I just want to hop on a plane and declare you my BFF for life and hug you. Because that’s how I roll.
Nothing but words of beauty in your posts Kyla, especially this one.
.-= Nora´s last blog ..C’est La Vie =-.
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Sarah
Lovely! You’ve made some brave and exciting choices this year and I’m so glad to hear they’ve led you to such a great place.
.-= Sarah´s last blog ..A snapshot (and my 100th post) =-.
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Marie
First, you take some amazing and beautiful pictures!
Second, always so good to hear you are doing well and happy. :)
.-= Marie´s last blog ..She vs He =-.
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Ev`Yan || apricot tea.
This was a beautiful, beautiful post Kyla. How you manage to compose something so gorgeous is beyond me & makes me a little jealous, for I’ve been trying to write like THAT for months.
I’m hoping you rub off on me a little bit. :]
.-= Ev`Yan || apricot tea.´s last blog ..flotsam & jetsam. =-.
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Elle Bee
Who you are is wonderful.
I’m glad you’re doing so well, and being so positive. I’m glad that things are fabulous in the world of Kyla. I’m excited for you and the Mister to finally get your honeymoon. :)
.-= Elle Bee´s last blog ..fall(ing) =-.
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Deanna
Posts like these are so encouraging! I’m really happy for you. It sounds like you’ve found deep contentment in your life in this season, and that is one of the best places to be.
Being comfortable with your body is awesome. I’ve gained a few pounds over the last year, and on a day to day basis I waver between feeling just happy with myself, and seeing girls in bikinis on tv and feeling like a blob. It’s complicated.
Happy one-year! I know it’s early, but I’m excited for you two. :)
Basically, I think you’re awesome, and this post was exactly what I needed to hear today.
.-= Deanna´s last blog ..The One About Dreamy =-.
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Doniree
This post makes me so intensely happy, Kyla. And I’d KILL for a week of your life right now, of the cranberry-picking, coffee-drinking, late-night-walking with the love of your life.
Can’t wait to have you back in Minne, and I love this idea of DOING something. Let’s DO something while you’re here. (Not to say multiple bottles of wine can’t be included!) How about bowling. There’s an alternative bowling alley here I’ve always wanted to try. Two actually. Lets DO that :)
It adds to your mystique ;)
.-= Doniree´s last blog ..Grounded =-.
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Jamie
I love this. It makes me so happy to see you happy. You’re awesome, Kyla <3
.-= Jamie´s last blog ..I’m way too awesome for this shit. =-.
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Megan
My husband has a super human metabolism as well … and I don’t. But it’s totally okay.
I’m so happy that you’re happy, Kyla. I love posts like this. :)
.-= Megan´s last blog ..By the numbers =-.
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erin
love it! so happy for you. happy almost anniversary. lets exchange addresses and be pen pals!
.-= erin´s last blog ..over the hill =-.
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erin
p.s. super pretty picture!
.-= erin´s last blog ..over the hill =-.
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Stefanie
“Referring to him as my husband doesn’t sound funny anymore, it sounds comforting.”
I felt the same way when we first got married. Being married and loving every second of it is an amazing feeling.
.-= Stefanie´s last blog ..I love TV… and my husband. =-.
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Allie
So beautiful! Being married to your best friend is a wonderful thing. :)
I’m looking forward to fall too.
.-= Allie´s last blog ..No Dogs Were Harmed in the Making of This Photo =-.
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Amber from Girl with the Red Hair
Aww, Kyla! Your posts are SO refreshing! You’re right, we need to DO more, not just talk – making memories is important.
I wish I had went horeseback riding when I was home last week – my dad has two horses and I used to ride ALL the time but now I haven’t gone for at least four years.
I just love reading your blogs because you, your words and your life is so sweet and refreshing!
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sara
Very happy for you and your husband. Honestly, Kyla, you are someone I wish I knew better and had as a friend. You are the pure example of what I think is AWESOME! You have so much going for you and have the life I think is just fantastic.
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SoMi's Nilsa
We are so in love, it’s stupid … sums it up, doesn’t it? I mean, you could be talking about your husband … or your life. You sound like you’re (finally) in a really good place, Kyla. And from this standpoint, it’s so well deserved!
.-= SoMi’s Nilsa´s last blog ..Replay =-.
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brookem
so happy for you lady! and that’s a beautiful picture!
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Margarita
Aww, that’s such a sweet post. I love love. Good luck with feeling girly for fall ;)
.-= Margarita´s last blog ..Currently Seeking Rehab =-.
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Rachel
i’m so happy you’re so happy. really.
i can totally relate on the whole “we’re so in love it’s stupid” thing. it’s nice.
love you!
.-= Rachel´s last blog ..A Love Story (Project). =-.
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hillary
Great post, lady!
I love the idea of you making jelly like your grandma used to make and giving it to your dad and aunt. So thoughtful!
.-= hillary´s last blog ..Black Eyes Brown Hair But She Don’t Care =-.
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ruby
Hope your sister has an amazing time in France, that’s so exciting! I think its great your goal is to do things rather just coffee…I’m going to make that my goal too!
.-= ruby´s last blog ..I wonder…. =-.
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Angel
I’m so happy for you! Everything about your life sounds beautiful and I enjoy reading about it. I agree with you, that I was tired of writing about me. However, I’m thinking of dipping a little bit more of “me” into my blogs. Wonderful post. You’re beautiful <3
.-= Angel´s last blog ..Web Design Friday: 28 Inspiring Web Designs =-.
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Rugged Fox
First things first LOL to the gel nails, you will have to keep me posted on how that goes. Second, what a lovely update! Padding is a definite must and devonshire cream is exactly where you should be at for fall. I am excited about your honeymoon! Actually that sounds kind of weird now that I think about it. I also cannot believe it has been a year since the wedding! Needless to say I am still recovering from that bottomless wine glass on my table. *L*
.-= Rugged Fox´s last blog ..in shining armour =-.
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Kathleen
Wow, I’m so happy right now!
.-= Kathleen´s last blog ..Car Dreams =-.
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katelin
kyla this is a beautiful post and it just makes me so happy to read it. seriously keep up the happy and yay for your honeymoon! :)
.-= katelin´s last blog ..Friday is Shareday. =-.
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Alyssa
“I want to send cards to all my bloggy friends. I want to scrapbook the past 23 years of my life.”
I would love to join you in these endeavors! :) YAY for fall <3
.-= Alyssa´s last blog ..Ready For Fall =-.
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Alexis
I love your attitude & that you are happy.
G & I were talking about how comfortably happy we are together just the other day. I am often around couples that don’t seem as synced as I feel with him & while it makes me even more grateful that we’re together, it also makes me gravitate to other couples I find that seem to have found a groove the way we have. It’s just always nice to hear someone else talking the same way about their relationship. ;)
Contentment is lovely.
.-= Alexis´s last blog ..Learning to Type…All Over Again =-.
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Janie
beautiful update!
.-= Janie´s last blog ..All is quiet… =-.
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Shop Girl*
You are my hero.
You’ve certainly had an interesting few months but you haven’t let it dampen your spirit. I hope you go horseback riding and have a wonderful honeymoon filled with those conversations that suddenly aren’t scary anymore because of who you’re having them with (re: future children). :)
.-= Shop Girl*´s last blog ..Saturday Somethings* =-.
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Jane
Sounds awesome…particularly the baked goods part! ;) And it’s always great to have a blog post about functional relationships.
.-= Jane´s last blog ..The Colours of Sunday =-.
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Lisa
that’s so cute how you and your husband are together! awww. i love it.
awesome, i think it’s fabulous that you are comfortable in your own skin. i love hearing about girls who are happy with their bodies, and don’t spend in inexorable amount of time examining every supposed “flaw.” i think we should embrace and love our bodies! so that is really awesome to here.
cute photo, too!
.-= Lisa´s last blog ..the sky is incredible today…(and other news.) =-.
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Ashley
Great point about being more involved in your friend’s lives. I find that me and my friends end up having a lot of coffees. I’m going to try to make some memories too!
.-= Ashley´s last blog ..The one where you find out my love of animal print. =-.
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nicoleantoinette
I am 100% sure that this is my favorite post of yours- which is saying a lot, because I have so many favorites.
This line though?
“I’m working on being in touch with my friends more and on being present in their lives. I’m trying to make sure we DO things together instead of just meet to talk- we need more memories, not more coffee.”
Is incredibly true and inspired and poignant. I love, love, love it (and you) and the fact that you’re at such a wonderful place in your life.
.-= nicoleantoinette´s last blog ..how to deal with a quarter life crisis =-.
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Libby
ahhh…great post <3
.-= Libby´s last blog ..busy-ness =-.
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thatShortChick
the fact that you stated that you’re getting more “padding on your haunches” is one the most preciously adorable things I’ve read in a long time.
but seriously, this post is a testament to what true happiness sounds and looks like.
.-= thatShortChick´s last blog ..family time equals good times =-.
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Kate
Sounds lovely! I’m so glad things are going well for you, in their own strange and wonderful way. You completely deserve this happiness :]
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sohobutterfly
I love that you are so in love with Mister. That’s all.
.-= sohobutterfly´s last blog ..Bumpity bump! =-.
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Meghan
Have a blast on your honeymoon, you’re going to have so much fun!
.-= Meghan´s last blog ..Two Weeks Late…. =-.
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Elizabeth
I love that you’re so happy–you really, really deserve it. It tickles me to read what you’re doing, so please do keep sharing.
Also, I can’t believe it’s been a year almost since your wedding! I remember eagerly waiting to see your (GORGEOUS) photos! Keep celebrating your beautiful relationship–there is not much in life that is richer than having someone to share it all with.
.-= Elizabeth´s last blog ..Comeback =-.
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Jessica
Pictures of you guys on your honeymoon are going to be adorable. I can’t wait to see them :)
.-= Jessica´s last blog ..Weekend recap: food, crafts and friends =-.
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Molly
This is an awesome post. I love it! You look so beautiful little lady!
.-= Molly´s last blog ..Oh, the things I have learned. =-.
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Melissa
I always love reading the really thorough recaps on a blogger’s life. I always love reading it just a little bit more when it’s filled with such happiness and optimism like this post.
It was really beautifully written, & I’m really glad you’re in such a great place right now.
.-= Melissa´s last blog ..identity. =-.
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Lauren From Texas
i LOVE this. Sometimes I think my blog is a running narrative of my weekends – but the whole reason I started my blog was to tell the story of my life. Thanks for reminding me and bringing me back to the basics. Love your blog, lady :)
xo
.-= Lauren From Texas´s last blog ..That Time When We Couldn’t Catch A Break. =-.
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Awmb
I am so excited that this is something that you’re so comfortable with. I’m glad you’re happy working part time, and studying and moving forwards in such a less stressful way than it really could be. And glad that you have someone so dear to you.
I really miss you, dammit.
.-= Awmb´s last blog ..A Weekend of Rediscovery =-.
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E.P.
This post makes me so incredibly happy for you and for all you’re doing. And how exciting that the honeymoon is so close!
Reading your posts is such an inspiration for me. Thanks for being so wonderful and honest in your writing.
.-= E.P.´s last blog ..Just what someone with allergies needs =-.
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Andy
Seems like this break from working and getting more “you” time has been incredible for you. Seems like for that lapse of time where you almost went through hell in that office, YOUR life was in a second plan. Now you’ve had time for you, and you’ve learned to live YOUR life, now you can add a work where you’re comfortable.
I loved everything about this post, really. (So much that I commented like weeks after it was publisehd).
.-= Andy´s last blog ..We did WHAT? =-.
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